where is my shine?

arghhh...i m so hate myself arghhhh..why i m still wishing sometime wont happen de thing.....
as i know that...aldi wont achieve anymore....why still wanna wishing.......
lisun ah lisun..why u so stubon leh...why...
why so unfair to me ah..why everytime oso like that.....
how many i should face this that of problem ah?
i m nt strong leh.....reli reli....
that day i m dream..soemthing reli reli scary...now..still afraid.
ish....i know that will happen..soon..
but hope that nt now leh.....wait me i m recover..then..happen it can or not..
i know wont impossible wan la....before happen it.god ah..can gv me some signal ah..
haha..haha...haha..i really really afraid leh......
next week...i lie to him.i m busy..ya jz 2day oni mah...say like reli so busy.
hmm..i m feel that..a human..reli need a friend...nt friend..i duno what world
is that..black and white.....haha..maybe...last time..i advise someone who reli
feel that dis world reli jz gt black and white wan...now he recover la.
but now turn me to be that world....who wanna take me out.....
gv me some shine there...hehe...
arghh..i reli reli jealous...someone have a dependant ..why me dun have..
is my problem ah....maybe la...
haiz...nvr mind la..wait lo...waiting my someone to bring me shine place...
duno why...i m feel that i quite hate those festival day..
people have enjoy there..why la me..sad la..dun wan say la..
no wan wanna share with me......haiz..suen le.......

thank

thank you big big present...i duno why wan present me that..but thank u la..